DoughnutHole

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Wisdom by DoughnutHole, literature

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Wisdom

She was an inch from my face. Four years old And perfect. I realized then That you’re as good as you’ll ever be Long before puberty. I’ve heard people say “Well, he’s pretty smart for his age” And it’s not until The braces have come off And that five o’clock shadow Is telling you you’re a man, That people stop noticing How smart you are For your age. And, instead, measure worth By how many dollars you earn Above minimum wage. I’ve regressed since preschool. Become more of myself, And less of Who I wanted to be. My heroes are women Who’ve been through more shit Than

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Dionysus by DoughnutHole, literature

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Dionysus

I get lost beneath the cold tide, Who makes love to the moon each night. Preaching fidelity, And beating me over the head with it Like stones. I remember late night suppers With Dionysus. Twice we spoke. And kissed. And drank. So much so that I forgot The Moon. A single, solitary hour Cradling the columns and fore walls Of my love. Like ingrown hairs. Today I walk, Regardless, As if regret were a mangled foot, So overcome by the tides That sometimes I can’t help but Fall under.

Christmas In New York by DoughnutHole, literature

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Christmas In New York

I used to know what it felt like. Before the week in New York Spent dodging bombs at the train station, And keeping butterflies From the thread of my sweater. The rungs of my overalls were Better that year. And the legs still fell below My ankles. We didn’t bring the Christmas lights, I remember. Mary’s tree already stood. So we watched. Undressing it each night Whilst the tiny bulbs Glowed heartlessly Compared to the Television’s light. All the while Feeling nothing. And on Christmas morning Our house was cold But New York Caught fire. And from my window, Between the shutters, An unimpressive skyline

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Carpenter Ants by DoughnutHole, literature

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Carpenter Ants

Across the street The neighbors leave their pool lights on And the moths have begun their rounds Like fat security guards. I’d turn my light on If it weren’t for fear of my own flies And carpenter ants So I’ll leave it off And pretend not to wonder. Because I’m weak at night And I don’t have the heart To look out the window Every time a car drives by That could be yours. And the moon breathes From behind a jealous cloud There’ll be no astronauts Here, tonight And tomorrow just dissipates Into strange air

Caterpillars by DoughnutHole, literature

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Caterpillars

The horizon drowns in purple Diving off a mountain far too beautiful To breathe through. And the fall – I’d close my eyes if it weren’t for love, Or that melancholy that follows any expanse. From home to here I search you out, Perhaps the horizon's swallowed us both, You, in your corner, Me, in mine. Like caterpillars on the same green mile Cradled by the same stubborn air You, in your corner, Me, in mine.

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Drowning Walls by DoughnutHole, literature

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Waiting For William by DoughnutHole, literature

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Waiting For William

I could wait for you forever Until my body’s frail and old I’ll endure the ridicule of passing tides And summers warmth gone cold No measure of love nor sweet desire Could label me ill-informed The man I loved has long been lost Yet I’ll wait until he returns I’m bound by my conviction Like waves to a breaking sea Blinded by my hopeful heart That knows nothing of eternity

Texas by DoughnutHole, literature

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Texas

Texas is nice this time of year He said “I think I’ll go” And France has Nuns and poor people (Santa ought to be generous) But what can I do Besides sit and wait Seventeen, and not my own girl I’m not deep enough to satisfy your thirst So Fuck the little things They only tie you down And I’m irrational and vain Shallow and plain But there’s no way I’m digging deeper Just so you can sleep at night I’ve no regrets Except that I was mean sometimes It was you who made me cry But there’s no Love in my cold shoulder Or Sex in your Distance Like Texas will change that Maybe you’l

No Way In Heaven by DoughnutHole, literature

The Cannibal by DoughnutHole, literature

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The Cannibal

So is this Love or something more like Murder You say there’s blood here, still. But all I feel are Bones And waking up was never quite this hard to manage I guess it’s different when you’re waking up alone All my morals that I’d put aside to Touch You And all the parts of me I let you compromise They drown, now in the acids of my stomach And suffocate the strength behind my smile So what kind of Love is it that eats you from the inside? Something Cannibal and Hidden ‘neath my bones There’s a struggle now in breathing deep enough to stay alive And there’s a horror in the night I’d never know

Shithead by DoughnutHole, literature

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Shithead

Sweat Tastes like Gasoline But you’re all over me Like a second skin And some days I’m a Shithead Others I’m ok Some days I’m a Sinner But you talked to me any way And I’m tired of this aching But I’m good at keeping still Even when the walls are moving And the flies begin to count folds I held my breath So long that my heart was in my ears Spilling from the tiny spaces Out onto the floor And there was my weakness Lain across tiles of ugly green Ugly like me Some days I’m a Shithead But mostly I’m ok Sucking on your aftertaste I wish would go away

Under Ache by DoughnutHole, literature

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Under Ache

Another big, fat wall To hit my head against And you keep saying “life goes on” I know it does But it doesn’t feel like that right now And my Face looks like a funhouse mirror; When I’m not ugly, I’m still not your type So I dress in different prisms In hopes I’ll catch your light And the world, it seems, is floating While I’m so near the ground Giving names to all the circles I’ve already been around And a face to that awful pulse That keeps me so under ache Squeezed between your house And my own, thick rib cage I put time aside for breathing, Tuesdays are my days to wallow Soaki

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Caterpillars by DoughnutHole, literature

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Caterpillars

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Deviant for 16 years
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Current Residence: off with Superfly sniffing a sharpie pen, MA
MP3 player of choice: i-pod
Personal Quote: "the hardest thing in this world... is to live in it." - BtVS

Favourite Movies

The Last of the Mohicans, Casper, Titanic, Death Becomes Her

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Tori Amos, Ani Difranco, PJ Harvey, Bruce Springsteen, Laura Veirs

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DoughnutHole

Nov 30, 2007

is it too much to ask?

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i've been working on the same damn poem now for almost two weeks. but i refuse to give up! is everyone excited about the holidays?!

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DoughnutHole

Oct 26, 2007

No One is Safe

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Sad I was to discover today that even DeviantArt has its little add-bots, posing as artists trying to sell you something. aaahhhh well. -- I haven't written anything in a few days. Been too caught up watching buffy 'til the wee-hours of the morning. I'm getting a saweeeeet camera for Christmas though! (along with a new mattress... but i suppose only i'll benefit from that) so I'm pretty excited.

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DoughnutHole

Oct 19, 2007

Tori Amos is my Savior

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Tonight's show was amazing... and clearly the best concert I've ever been to. First off, her energy was just astounding. Especially for someone who's been touring non-stop for the past few months. She played the longest set on EARTH! Which explains why there was only one opening act (Thank God, too, cuz I hate openers) Setlist : *as pip* Cruel Bliss Fat Slut Smokey Joe Teenage Hustling The Waitress *wig change* Big Wheel Crucify Concertina Cornflake Girl Putting The Damage On Take To The Sky *solo* Donald Trump & miss MA Improv Jackie's Strength Etienne *band returns* Virginia (one of my favs...) Hotel Code Red *

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Jul 31, 2008

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Oct 15, 2007

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